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I am Connor. The android sent my Cybrerlife.

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[Okay, Hank’s gotta smile a little at Connor talking shit about Gavin.]

Good thing Reed’s not here to be an obnoxious little fuck then, huh.

[Watching the way Connor squeezes closer to the window, then:]

No, I just... figured you wouldn’t want me breathing down your neck. Got a whole ass trolley to ourselves. [For now...?]

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[Connor watches Hank before turning to the window as the trolley begins to roll.]

If that's what you want, Hank.

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[No, this is about what Connor wants. And Hank is apparently shit at turning off his “assume what’s best for Connor“ mode.

So he ignores it: that impulse telling him to give Connor space. To let him breathe.

Hank gets up. Steps around Sumo to sit beside Connor.]

You know I want what makes you happy, Connor. Sometimes — [a lot of the time] — I’m just bad at seeing what that is. So you can tell me.

[Gazing past Connor, out the window:] Anything in particular you’re excited to see?

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[Connor turns in his seat again, eyebrows raised.] I'm afraid that goes against my programming.

[Wanting anything is a sign of deviancy, though Connor has started to express wants and desires. He's not comfortable with saying so.]

I haven't downloaded any information about the layout of Etraya. I suppose I'd like to see all of it.

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So I just gotta guess, huh? Is that it?

[Until Connor is deviant, anyway. Which will be soon, Hank hopes — not that he’s really any closer to figuring out what might trigger that. Because the thought, the near certainty, of Hank dying hasn’t helped. Nor has Connor’s injuries.]

Then we can see all of it. Every nook and cranny. [The bounce castle! The weird camp where Hank was held prisoner! Lots to see, probably. Made interesting by present company.

They’re still in the part of Etraya that’s familiar to Hank: the last of the shops. He’s never been much north of this.]

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I can answer when asked. [But expressing it freely is not something Connor's ready to do.]

I think the trolley is an excellent way to see most, if not all, of Etraya.

[Connor makes mental notes of the shops as they pass them. None seem to be the source of Aurora's abilities.]

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I’ll try to remember to ask, then. Until...

[Until Connor is deviant. But it’s not as if that’ll change everything. Hank should still work on his communication issues. His assuming issues.]

Would’ve had to walk all this way before. Had to walk my ass down to the church in the middle of the night.

[Now Hank can just take the trolley!!

To their left, what appears to be a large stone castle sort of structure looms in the distance.]

Some weirdos live there, I bet.

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I've never seen you go to church, Hank. [Connor looks interested, but before he can inquire further, he sees the large castle.]

Do you know them?

I’m laughing because Vincent lives there but Hank doesn’t know LOL

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Was meeting up with someone. Didn’t even know there was a church before all that. Suppose it’s a common enough place, though.

[Although who thinks “I want to bring a church over to Etraya that’s falling apart, and has this weird bed of flowers in it?? Hank has no idea.]

Nah. [He grabs the camera from his bag and takes a few pictures of the castle.] Just seems like an odd thing to bring to Etraya. Kinda ominous, huh? I mean, whoever did is probably used to that kind of thing. Can’t imagine bringing over my house.

vincent is having connor call him father vincent >>

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Is that why we're staying in an apartment?

[It would make sense if Hank didn't want to bring the whole house. An apartment just big enough for the two of them and Sumo.]

WHEEZING that guy I stg 💗

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Yeah. Although I’ve been thinking about someplace bigger, actually.

[Hank absentmindedly scratches the side of his neck, looking down at Sumo, who’s made the floor his new drool palace.]

Thought it would be nice to get Sumo a big yard to laze around in. Haven’t been sure where, though.

[Looking up at Connor now.]

Then you came along. Been more focused on you. [Hank offers a gap-toothed smile.] Was worried I’d fuck it up, too — accidentally make you assume I was trying to leave you behind or get away from you, or something. Which isn’t the case.

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I think the way you're explaining it now assures me you have no intention of leaving me behind.

[It's just easier to assume Connor believes the worst right now, especially with Solmara's fate weighing heavily on his robotic shoulders.

And speaking of which,] If I ever have to return to Solmara, it will be because I am programmed to do so.

[There's an 'if' in there! He's feeling less certain about his mission.]

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Good. ‘Cause I don’t. Just, y’know — trying to be more clear here. We’ve had quite a few misunderstandings already, huh?

[And there will undoubtedly be more...!]

The sort that could’ve been solved real quick if I were better at talking. And the sort that would’ve never happened at all if I had kept my mouth shut.

[Hank catches that “if.“ Progress, perhaps? Or is that wishful thinking? He sighs, still having little to go on in the way of deviancy triggers.]

I know, Connor. I know you don’t wanna leave. And I don’t want you to leave, either. We’ll get to where we need to be.

[Next up on their trolley adventure: a large house surrounded by dead trees, up in the middle of nowhere. Looks like the setting of a horror movie. Hank takes a few pictures, regardless.]

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I appreciate that, Hank. I am also aware that I may take things literally.

[As if it weren't obvious enough that Connor takes most things literally.]

I want there to be a way where I could fulfill my mission and not hurt you or Etraya.

[Connor continues to peer out the window, curious as to the odd house.]

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You do. But that’s just your thing. Just like, well — you work with a lot of my things. And we do okay despite all that.

[Connor is good at dealing with him. Does Hank get irritable? Sure. But with most people, they don’t manage to break through those ornery outer layers. Most people don’t care to, and Hank doesn’t blame them.

Once, he would have told himself that makes things easier. Push people away. Keep them away. Now? He’s not quite as sure.

It’s lonely, for one. And Hank is tired of being lonely.]

Would be nice if we could all just get along. I figure Solmara’s got their own Aurora-Echo–whoever. They ever try talking, d’you think?

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[Connor finds a moment as he's staring out the window. A brief crystalline moment when he can look out the window and see himself in the reflection. It's like what they tried before.

Connor can talk to himself, but not Hank.]

She killed it. The AI. Solmara is in ruin because we can't rely on the AI to replenish provisions.

My friends are starving.

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Why would she kill the AI? Did she not know that’d fuck everything up? Did she not care?

[And Hank figures Connor won’t be able to answer most of those questions, if any, but Hank is still baffled enough to ask.]

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[Connor presses his mismatched fingers to the glass.]

We have to restore what we lost. Or everyone there will die.

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[Hank looks at Connor’s reflection.]

We’re not going to let that happen, Connor. Once you deviate, we can figure this shit out. We’ll help as many people as we can. And that’s... something worth deviating for, yeah?

[He can’t help how small his voice sounds as he fishes. For a bite. A nibble. Anything.]

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[Connor looks at his reflection, at the android who stares back.]

I'm afraid it's not enough. I'm sorry, Hank.

[He sees Hank now too and ducks his head.]

There's only one way to save them.

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What is enough? [Hank isn’t asking Connor, really. He knows he doesn’t have the answer.] ‘Cause it’s not me dying. Not you dying. Hell, not everyone else dying.

[There’s a long stretch before any more landmarks of note outside. Then there are a smattering of buildings, one marked “Shooting Range.” Hmm. Another mansion, this one less weird looking than the last.]

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[Connor thinks he might know where that tipping point lies, that it has to do with Hank in some kind of danger, but Connor doesn't think it will trip until they are in the moment.

He can also feel the weight of what must be Hank's disappointment, imagined or otherwise.]

When the moment comes, I'll know.

[And suddenly this trolley ride isn't that fun.]

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[That’s the crux of it, really: no one knows what it’ll take till they’re there.

And hopefully once they get to that point, it won’t be too late.]

Connor. [Hank sighs.] Look at me. And don’t just look at my reflection, I mean look at me.

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[Connor lingers at the window for a moment before turning toward Hank.]

I wish I knew. [His eyes drift downward, toward Sumo.] I wish I could flip it like a switch, but I can't.

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I know. I know you’re trying, Connor. I’m not mad at you. I know you have it in you — you’ve goddamn done it before. I’m just...

[Sumo looks up at Connor. Yawns.]

Mad at myself. Mad at everything but you. Mad at the world — the worlds — for putting you in one shitty situation after the other. And I’m just here like a rubbernecking fucker, unable to do anything so I just gawk, because what the hell else am I supposed to do?